One of my signature moves is bottling up all my emotions over time and then eventually I will have a ‘meltdown’, which basically means me being pissed at myself for letting it get that far. A few days ago I was accompanied by paper and pen and a lot of emotions going through my mind. I wrote it all down, which is actually the first time I did that in a long time. It felt good to put it all on paper, getting it out of my system. But the thing I hoped for didn’t really happen. I hoped that that feeling of relief would stay around for a while, but that wasn’t the case.

 

Wherever you are, be there totally. If you find your here and now intolerable and it makes you unhappy, you have three options:
remover yourself from the situation, change it, or accept it totally. If you want to take responsibility for your life, you must choose one of those three options, and you must choose now.
Then accept the consequences. No excuses. No negativity. No psychic pollution.
Keep your inner space clear.

~ Eckhart Tolle ~

 

So I realized it was time to act and to really get rid of all those negative feelings, by starting to respect myself again. I’ve been too nice, too patient, too ‘good’ even, towards some people and I totally forgot about myself and my values. That feeling, disrespecting myself, is something I don’t like at all and it isn’t even something I should be feeling. It’s been a long time coming, but it’s about time I do something for myself, take time for myself. Take some step backs, have a slate as clean as possible and just get to know myself again, respect my own values.

Respect yourself first, then respect others and hope to be respected too.

 

I learned the hard way that I cannot always count on others to respect my feelings. Even if I respect theirs. Being a good person doesn’t guarantee that others will be good too. You only have control over yourself and how you choose to be as a person. As for others, you can only choose to accept them or walk away.
~ unknown ~