My year 2014 turns out to be a huge mess. Going from being extremely happy to ‘not sure what I should do next’! Now I really realize that everything can change in the blink of an eye. If one thing happens, you can normally ‘take your time’ to recover from it, but if everything happens at once… it’s not that easy. Life is a struggle.

“Eventually all things fall into place. Until then, laugh at the confusion, live for the moments, and know everything happens for a reason.”

The good thing is that I’m trying to recover from it all, which is a challenge. I’ve got a few ‘solutions’ in my head, some might seem a bit drastic (moving to another country or even continent), but maybe that is exactly what I need. I am not running away from what has happened, but I’m trying to rise above it even if it’s hard and think of myself. Be stronger!

Many people say that things happen for a reason, and maybe it does. But I’m having a hard time seeing why it is all happening to me. If that person doesn’t care, then I don’t care. Shutting someone out of your life when you don’t have a choice, especially when you really cared about that person, is painful.

“Life has many ways of testing a person’s will, either by having nothing happen at all or by having everything happen all at once” – Paulo Coelho

When it just happened, the song ‘Stronger’ by Kelly Clarkson played on the radio. Maybe I’m stronger than I think, it’s a battle that I need to win and will win!

“The moment you are ready to quit is usually the moment right before a miracle happens. Don’t give up”